surfacing

I've been wrestling grief, which doesn't work, of course. Denial is simply the beginning of the process. More than simply disbelief that some one has died, denial includes this desire to avoid the sorrow. I felt as though too much were going on, so much so that I didn't want to take on one more thing- that 'one more thing' being my sorrow at losing Carol. As if I can choose to avoid grief at the loss of one of my closest friends. Stuffing my sadness left me unable to move forward - with anything for over a week. Not ideal, to say the least. But, I am moving forward again...

This journal was made using materials I picked up at Maria's Collage annex at Art & Soul (also known as The Art & Soul Store). The covers are schoolchildren's chalkboards. The label/ printing on the edge is in French, so perhaps they are from France. The papers are Stonehenge white and black. I didn't pre-paint the papers because I wanted the spine to be black & white. The webbing straps are from a belt, thrifted from the Goodwill. I used a vintage button and some bright red, hmmm, bias tape?, I think as a tie closure.

Comments

[chrissy]

I've gone through grief a few times.. I've found its like a tide coming going in and out... grief can be deep depending on the relationship one has had w/the one who is no longer...I've grown a lot since those losses...Sounds like u are cresting... its an on going process...

[Kathryn]

Grief brings with it an avalanche of emotions and you'll find yourself moving through them over the course of time. Be kind to yourself and know that it's part of the process and that it's ok to feel all the things you're feeling. Hugs.

[Briana]

I completely love your style of binding journals. It is very exciting when you share new ones!

Also, I am sending you healing hugs. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[gina armfield]

this came out great! I knew you would do something fabulous with those boards ;)

[Christine Merritt]

I am curled up in my rocker, sending you a long warm hug... with kleenex in hand and love in my pockets for you.. write through it, hug your children and know that Carol will smile down on you.

There are no words for grief, but we have to find some words to help wash away the pain... LK I hope you are able to find lots and lots of words to help you through.